12 days before chinese new year

it has been long..
Chinese new year is coming...
do you remember that during this period we usually have finished or partially done with our chinese new year shopping
i still remember you like to buy a lot of clothes for CNY
the priceless expression of your happy and cheerful mood when you found the clothing you like
i still remember you like white colour, resembles purity and innocence..

this year...i have not done any shopping because i am busy with studies
but somehow the pretty clothes, shoes and accessories don't attract me anymore
i miss the times when i shop with you...
the errrrrr comments..when you don't really know how to say it is a bad dress!

may yee, i tried to move on so much...disconnect myself from this page...from anything related to you..and i am sorry i have not visited your grandma
never have i thought..i can never forget you..
everyday...anything, anyhow you cross my mind..unconsciously
and i know one thing...even if people wont understand why??
you are always with me
i will move on but you will never leave me
you will be my silent imaginary companion forever
somehow..i treat this blog as my conversation with you.
i know you read this...

may yee, today my lecturer gave a very good remark
"why do people regret when somebody passed away?
why don't they appreciate them when they are alive"
so trueeee...
yes somehow i regret i have not done my part as a good friend sometimes
but i never regret knowing you
although we argue and grown apart at times
but the times we were together for decades of life...
they are the best moments in my life
we were so true to each other
we share everything and anything...embracing life together..

my soul mate..
you will be forever in my memories
unforgettable and irreplaceable