Happy belated 29th birthday dear sweet Carrie. How could I possible forgot about this special day? I was so tucked up with work at office and things just got to my way. Wish you an eternal happiness and to your little one.
This year is so different from those years. I wish I could just lay out everything here and tell it out. Christmas 2007 will never be the same without you.
Love you always,
MH
20.12.07
The Chinese Temple where her altar resides
Some of you may not have the chance to pay the last respect during her funeral.
Although her urn is placed in Nirvana Memorial Park, Semenyih, her altar with her photo is placed at a chinese temple in Ampang.
The chinese temple is just infront of the LRT AMPANG (LAST STATION) and near to police station Ampang. If you are driving there you could just park at the LRT carparks beside the temple. Just a very short distance walk to the temple.
If you are going there, you could just bring some fruits and if you would like to pray, just donate RM1 for the incense sticks. If you need further info and if you are going there and need a guide (i can accompany you if i am free on the day) email me at carriekong78@gmail.com
Although her urn is placed in Nirvana Memorial Park, Semenyih, her altar with her photo is placed at a chinese temple in Ampang.
The chinese temple is just infront of the LRT AMPANG (LAST STATION) and near to police station Ampang. If you are driving there you could just park at the LRT carparks beside the temple. Just a very short distance walk to the temple.
If you are going there, you could just bring some fruits and if you would like to pray, just donate RM1 for the incense sticks. If you need further info and if you are going there and need a guide (i can accompany you if i am free on the day) email me at carriekong78@gmail.com
11.12.07
10.12.07
You are the song inside my soul
I visited grandma in the same hospital you breathe your last breath.
I have mixed feelings before i enter the ward
Sudden feeling of sadness, lost and emptiness swept over me
It was the same feeling on 160707
the day i will never forget in my entire life
The moment i saw your grandma
i felt bit of relief
i felt that you were around somehow
grandma is fine
she has fallen and hurt her hip
no infections or surgeries were needed, only a certain type of corset might be needed to support her body
she is in fact very healthy
she has strong bones, strong teeth and even sharp memory
sharper than mine
i looked around and i saw similar or even slightly elderly women around
some were in deep pain and some were having dementia
in comparison, grandma is really much healthier and stronger than any of these women
but the motivation to continue on is weaker than any of them
you were her only hope to continue on
now that you are gone..she felt nothingness
i could see the emptiness in her stare
the same emptiness i felt or even i feel until today
empty and hollow and gloomy
I have really learn a lot since your demise
I see the beauty of some people who were so supportive and so concern
and i also see the not-so-beautiful side of some
i guess this is life and nature of human
there will be no perfection in life
I am surprised that i started to see things and problems as trivial matters
the things that usually triggers my nerve
has little significance effect to me now
what else could be more important than life or death matter?
good change or bad change?am not too sure
Yesterday, Yin Ping, Ah How, Mei Han and I visited May Yee's "ling wai" at Kuan Yin Temple, Ampang for her birthday.
He exact birthday is tomorrow, 11th Dec.
I miss the time when we all gather around nice ambiance restaurant to celebrate birthday
i really miss the time
i really miss you
May the blessings of the Triple Gem be with you and your baby
I have mixed feelings before i enter the ward
Sudden feeling of sadness, lost and emptiness swept over me
It was the same feeling on 160707
the day i will never forget in my entire life
The moment i saw your grandma
i felt bit of relief
i felt that you were around somehow
grandma is fine
she has fallen and hurt her hip
no infections or surgeries were needed, only a certain type of corset might be needed to support her body
she is in fact very healthy
she has strong bones, strong teeth and even sharp memory
sharper than mine
i looked around and i saw similar or even slightly elderly women around
some were in deep pain and some were having dementia
in comparison, grandma is really much healthier and stronger than any of these women
but the motivation to continue on is weaker than any of them
you were her only hope to continue on
now that you are gone..she felt nothingness
i could see the emptiness in her stare
the same emptiness i felt or even i feel until today
empty and hollow and gloomy
I have really learn a lot since your demise
I see the beauty of some people who were so supportive and so concern
and i also see the not-so-beautiful side of some
i guess this is life and nature of human
there will be no perfection in life
I am surprised that i started to see things and problems as trivial matters
the things that usually triggers my nerve
has little significance effect to me now
what else could be more important than life or death matter?
good change or bad change?am not too sure
Yesterday, Yin Ping, Ah How, Mei Han and I visited May Yee's "ling wai" at Kuan Yin Temple, Ampang for her birthday.
He exact birthday is tomorrow, 11th Dec.
I miss the time when we all gather around nice ambiance restaurant to celebrate birthday
i really miss the time
i really miss you
May the blessings of the Triple Gem be with you and your baby
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